Today when I was reading some other blogs, I found this on another blogger's page. I really made me stop and think. Most of the things in my life have fallen in place just like I had planned. I graduated high school, went to college, made lifetime friends, met a sweet guy, got engaged, graduated college, got married and have a wonderful job. We then got a puppy, got a house, bought our first car together, and then life threw me a wrench. We tried, and tried, and tried, and tried to have a baby. We decided it was time to go to the doctor. He fixed my problems and three months later we found out we were expecting. Finally. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would have fertility problems. I never thought that when we decided to try and have a baby it would take 19 months. I never thought I would be in that same place again, but here I am today. Trying, and trying, and trying. I had my whole life planned out, how many kids we wanted to have, how far apart they would be and now that plan has changed a little bit. God has blessed me with a great life, a great husband who loves me and a little girl who loves me. I have family who loves me. I have a God who loves me.....and because he loves me I know everything will be ok. He let me follow my plan and then he decided it was time to follow his. Right now, I am learning that it is not my plan, but it is his. It is not my time, it is his. It has been very hard for me, the control freak, to let go and let God. But I am. I know that if and when he is ready for us to have another child he'll give us one. Not when I am ready or think I am, but when he is ready. He knows who that little one is already and when he is ready for that sweet angel to be born then he will give us a baby!
I am also letting go of jobs. I know that Andrew will find the perfect job for him when the time is right. He will be a great Principal someday. But this is also God's timing, not ours. So I have to learn to let go...
I will get a post up soon with some pictures of my family. Sorry I have not blogged for so long, but I will get another up soon...I've been busy. Very Busy.
1 comment:
I am sorry you have had and are having a difficult time trying to conceive a baby. I am sure that it is very tough to go through something like that. I hope that it is in God's plan sooner than later for ya!
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