I am having a minor freak out today, I know this is silly, but sometimes I think I am just going crazy! For so long it was me and just me. I have no siblings and had no one to share my life with. Then for a long time it was me and Andrew. We had freedom to do what we wanted, when we wanted, how we wanted and it was great. Then we had Calleigh and things changed but were able to focus all of our attention on her. She is the center of our world. She has every one's attention all of the time. Our lives are going to change drastically again in a matter of months. I know that I have enough love for two kids, but sometimes I question myself. Am I going to be a good mom to two babies? Do I really have enough love? Am I going to make someone feel neglected? What am I going to do with two kids, I am just one person? These are just a few questions that I already know that answers to but sometimes I freak out a little bit and think what if I fail?
The biggest things in my life are God and my family. I never want to let either of them down. I know I have enough love for tons of kids. I know that I will be the best mom I can be to both of them. I will do my best to never make anyone in my family feel neglected. I am just one person, but God never gives us more than we can handle and if he though I could not handle this he would not give it to me.
Is this normal or do you all think I am crazy? Am I just worrying too much about something that I should not be? Oh, I can't wait for these crazy feelings to go away!
On a lighter note, baby Wibbeler is excellent! We went to the doctor this morning and the baby was all over the place...jumping, moving, kicking.....it was so great to see! The heartbeat was up to 189 today! Things look great and I could not be more happy! Thanks for the prayers!